A certain special someone

NB: So, i havnt blogged in a while. Some unique kind of writers block, fuelled by the fact that someone stupid critised everything i am as well as what i write about. but im not going to spend time venting about that or wallowing. Im finally blogging again and nothing is going to stop that.

Over the last couple of weeks i have discovered a new type of happiness... one i havnt felt in a very, very long time. Dare i say it: love? not yet. maybe connection is a better word for it? yeah :)

So anyways. its a wonderful feeling... i dont want to disgust anyone with details, nor embarrass him by sharing them... but happiness right now, to me, is knowing that if im thinking of him, chances are he's thinking of me too. Its the fact that we have a connection that i never ever would imagined having with him.

I mean, when you know the basic stuff about us, we actually couldnt be more different. He's a PT... i dont really care about fitness. He is in love with Basketball... whilst the most i know is that, unlike netball, youre actually allowed to move with the ball in this game. I eat crap.. he doesnt. (with the exception of massive doughnuts :P) I love swimming at the beach... he wont go near it. i read... he doesnt.

The saying "opposites attract" is actually true in this point. and it works so well, we actually compliment each other with how contrasting we are.



So heres my happiness. I enjoy the fact its actually weird if i go a day without seeing him. I like that we pay each other out and play silly little games that one have one specific ending. i like arguing about how it never ever rains in the summer.. and now everytime is DOES (which is like everyday) i think of him. I enjoy the fact he lets me get excited over the little things, like fancy rollar blades and he doesnt mind (tooooo much).

HE makes me happy.



Having said all of that, people in general are making me happy these days. but i recon i'll save that thought for the next blog... cant get writers block that way :P


Chels

Happiness involves the path to following your dreams

I had a realisation today. Its been on my mind for quite sometime now, but i only truly realised how much it meant to me. So here it is:

Sometime in my life, im going to open up my own second hand bookshop. and its going to have this "trade" option, where you bring in your old book and take out a new (previously owned)one. and its going to have this coffee shop attached to the side, on like a different level, so people can read the books and drink wonderful coffee.

Thats my dream. its a pretty far off one i must admit, but one day i hope its going to happen. I really hope so. i've started collecting my books already :)

But this got me thinking. This along with another conversation i had with my sister. We were in my car and, randomly enough, we were talking about hair colour. And she said how she wanted to put blue in her hair, just in one section. And then we got onto a rant how we'd buy the wash out stuff so that if she didnt like it it didnt matter and then we'd have to save up this amount of money and blah blah blah. We just got SO excited PLANNING for this dream. Planning is the first step towards actually achieving your dreams. For me, each book i save is one step closer towards my bookshop. and i feel happy, and i feel excited, simply knowing im slowly getting there.

So my point is this: no matter how small or big your 'dreams' are, its taking that one step towards it that helps in the happiness. And i guess thats what dreams are: yes it has a "final destination", but its the path it takes to get there that makes us the people we are, and makes it all so very amazing in the end.


You all better visit my shop and drink my coffee :)



Chels



PS. today wasnt the greatest day. And yours mightn't have been either. but i know writing this has helped just that little bit, and i hope it has for you. Blogging makes me happy, and even if a total of 3 people read this (not including my mother), it doesnt matter. my BLOG makes me happy, and thats enough. So i hope you get as much happiness out of it as i put into it

C

A tribute to the 2010 year 12s

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. And the one point that has been in my head is this: Why do all good things come to an end? And i think i finally came to a conclusion:

Things come to an end in order for new things to begin.



Over the last couple of weeks i've had a lot of "lasts". and have many more to come. i had my last day of school, handed in my last assignment. had our last assembly. passed over our leadership. i never have to do high school math again. I never have to wake up on a monday morning, put the uniform on and NOT look forward to my final week of school. Whilst this is unbelievably exciting, it is sad in so many ways.

except, im not going to be focusing on that. Coz school once was a time that made me HAPPY. looking back on this year, whilst it was rediculously terrible in SO many ways, it was brilliant. somewhat.

ANYWAYS. my brilliant thought for the day is this: one thing may make you happy. but sometimes that thing comes to an END simply to make room for ANOTHER thing to make you happy. Does that somewhat make sense? For me, high school ended. and this is sad, but it had to happen. it had to make way for the new adventures that i like to call FREEDOM and LIFE.

:)



So yes, i hope you liked my wisdom. only took a few months to think of it :) so, as this year, and our schooling comes to an end, i dedicate this blog post to the year 12s of 2010. may your years ahead be full of fun, happiness and wonderful memories.

Love, Chels.

Getting to know you.. (me)

CHELSIIEEE SKYEE
totally honest. this is where i stand. this is who i am. and i am happy with who i am.

[ ] I have/had piercings in places besides my ears.
[x] I have many scars.
[x] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[x] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[x] I’ve had/have braces.
[] I have more than two piercings.

Embarrassment
[x] Disney movies still make me cry. and i am not ashamed of this
[x] I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried.
[x] I’ve glued my hand to something.
[ ] I’ve laughed ’til some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[ ] I’ve had my pants rip in public.

Health
[x] I’ve gotten stitches.
[ ] Broken a bone.
[ ] I’ve had my tonsils removed.
[x] I’ve sat in a doctor’s office with a friend.
[ ] I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I’ve had serious surgery.
[x] I’ve had chicken pox.

Traveling
[ ] I’ve been to Florida.
[x] I’ve driven/ridden over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I’ve been on a plane.
[ ] I’ve been to America.
[ ] I’ve been to Cuba.
[ ] I’ve been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I’ve been to Ottawa.
[ ] I’ve been to Sudbury.
[ ] I’ve been to the Caribbean.
[ ] I’ve been to Europe.

Experiences
[x] I’ve gotten lost in my city.
[x] I’ve seen a shooting star.
[x] I’ve wished on a shooting star.
[ ] I’ve seen a meteor shower.
[x] I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[ ] I’ve kicked a guy where it hurts.
[x] I’ve been to a casino.
[ ] I’ve been skydiving.
[ ] I’ve gone skinny-dipping.
[ ] I’ve drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
[ ] I’ve crashed a car.
[x] I’ve been skiing.
[x] I’ve been in a musical.
[x] I’ve caught a snowflake or snow on my tongue.
[ ] I’ve seen the Northern Lights.
[x] I’ve sat on a rooftop at night.
[x] I’ve played a prank on someone.
[x] I’ve ridden in a taxi.



Relationships
[x] I’m single.
[ ] I’m in a relationship.
[ ] I’ve gotten divorced.
[ ] I don’t believe in love
[ ] I’ve gone on a blind date.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[x] I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back.
[x] I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
[x] I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.

Honesty and Crime
[ ] I’ve been arrested.
[x] I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t.
[x] I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.
[ ] I’ve snuck out.
[ ] I’ve lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I’ve cheated while playing a game.
[ ] I’ve witnessed a crime.
[ ] I’ve been in a fist fight.

Death and Suicide
[x] I’m afraid of dying.
[x] I hate funerals.
[ ] I’ve seen someone/something dying.
[x] Someone close to me has attempted/committed suicide.
[ ] I’ve planned my own suicide before.
[ ] I’ve written a eulogy for myself.


Random
[x] I can sing well.
[ ] Stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[x] I open up to others easily
[x] I watch the news.
[ ] Don’t kill bugs/don’t like to
[x] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[x] I twirl my hair.
[x] I care about grammar.
[ ] I love spam.
[x] I’ve copied more than 30 CD’s in a day.
[x] I bake well.
[x] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, blue, red, black, purple, or orange.
[x] I would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[x] I hate tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes
[x] I eat fast food weekly
[ ] I’ve not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[x] I can’t sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[ ] I am really ticklish.
[x] I like white chocolate.
[ ] I bite my nails.
[x] I’m good at remembering faces.
[ ] I’m good at remembering names.
[x] I’m good at remembering dates.
[x] I honestly have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[x] All my answers were totally honest

FAMILY
[x] I’ve sworn at my parents.
[ ] I’ve run away from home.
[ ] I’ve been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I’ve had children.
[ ] I’ve lost a child.

SEXUALITY
[ ] I’ve had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[ ] I’ve had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[x] I’ve been kissed in the rain.
[x] I’ve hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.

BAD TIMES
[x] I’ve consumed alcohol.
[ ] I regularly drink.
[ ] I can’t swallow pills.
[ ] I can swallow numerous pills at a time without difficulty
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression at some point
[ ] shut others out when I’m upset.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I’m anorexic or bulimic or have EDNOS.
[x] I’ve slept an entire day when I didn’t need it.
[ ] I’ve hurt myself on purpose.
[ ] I am/have been addicted to self harm.
[x] I’ve woken up crying
[x] I’ve lost weight
[x] I’ve gained weight
[ ] I’m at my thinnest
[ ] I’m at my biggest
[ ] I’ve lost weight and kept it off
[x] I’ve lost weight but gained it back
[x] My weight affects my mood
[ ] I weigh myself daily
[x] I am jealous of everyone smaller than me
[x] I feel bigger than people who are my size
[ ] I feel happy when I’m hungry
[ ] I get depressed after I eat
[x] I’ve skipped a meal
[ ] I’ve spat food out
[x] I’ve taken diet pills
[ ] I’ve used laxatives
[ ] I’ve purged
[x] I exercise
[x] I exercise so I can eat
[ ] I work out secretly
[ ] I work out daily
[ ] I exercise to counteract eating
[x] I’ve fainted from exhaustion

I’VE DONE
[ ] Weed
[ ] Cigarettes
[x] Alcohol
[x] Diet pills
[x] Pain killers
[ ] LSD
[ ] Mushrooms
[ ] Speed
[ ] Cocaine
[ ] Other
[x] I’m not proud of any of the above





But i am proud to be me.

Chels

Its all about me me me :)

Stolen from a friend and then adapted, thought i'd fill it out. I recon that sometimes, getting you know yourself a little better is enough to make you happy, even just for a little bit. Filling this out, i realised a few things about myself that i like, as well as a few things that MAYBE i need to change :)

I am: Chelsie Skye, 18
I love: My best friend Christie and my sister Brooke
I like: ribbons, stockings, mascara, skirts, texting, curly hair and handbags
I have: an obbsession with clocks
I wish: i could fly
I want: year 12 to be over already
I can: sing pretty well :)
I cant: pronounce the world "Ambulence"
I think: i overthink a little bit too much
I need: a holiday!
I will: travel overseas over the next few years
I wont: leave the house without my phone
I HATE: bitchy girls and horrible boys
I tolerate: bossy people and show offs
I ignore: those who are not worth my time
I always: have time for others
I appreciate: the fact that i am where i am

Chels

HAPPINESS

This year has been a very, VERY long one for me. With the combination of year 12, relationship worries and life (and everything that comes a long with it) has made this year a SPECIFICALLY hard one.

Seeing as all this has happened, happiness (for me) does not come lightly. Before, it had been something that just HAPPENED. something that i, or anyone else for that matter, seemed to have to work hard for. I mean really, when you think about it, who TRIES to be happy? it seems to come naturally.

WRONG chels. WRONG.



As the year is getting harder and harder, with exams fast approaching and sleep is a thing of the past, i am realising more and more that we need to start making the choice to be happy, and start making the choice to see the positive in life.

I've said it before. but i think some smart ass professor dude once said something along the lines of "reinforcement solidifies an arguement"

hmm maybe i made that up. i dunno. ANYWAY!

I just think, it times of trouble i think we need to start rembering all the little good things in life, instead of the bad. Just saying :)

Chels

Risk taking

*dedicated to someone special*



Something that i have found brings a lot of happiness is risk taking. yeah, it sounds a little bit stupid. Risk = something that you dont know how things are gonna turn out. Right? Right.

Yeah im not gonna argue that point. ANYWAY. The outcome of this could be either really really bad

or really really good.

But i think sometimes be focus too much on the NEGATIVE side rather then the positive side, and a lot of our decisions are based on this fact. we dont want to get hurt, whether that be emotionally, physically or whatever. we dont want to get embarrassed. we dont want to look stupid.

But I really recon if we ended up taking these said risks... we would find something that is absolutely AMAZING. I think a guy called James West or something once said:

"It is a love to risk, in case it does not work out. ah but what if it does?"

And i think that approach should be taken in every context. So what if something bad happens.. what is something even BETTER happens in the end?





So if i want you to take ANYTHING at all from this.. take that approach. do something spontaneous.

Wear that bright floral skirt with that weird top and stand out from the crowd.
Ask that girl out you like.
Go talk to that person you see on the bus every morning.
Eat that extra doughnut that you really dont need, simply coz you want it.
Wear blue eyeshadow.


I dont know, whatever your risk is, do it. for me :) as a new way to uncover happiness.




Chels